Mike and I have de-cluttered our home. It is an amazing feeling. When we were in California, we were reminded that people have homes that function, that are not so full of stuff that you can't even breathe. Now I am not saying that we were or are hoaders, but I HATE clutter, and with Mike and Hailey on board, I had to move fast! We started thanksgiving day and we are almost done with the house. I cannot believe how much stuff we had that we didn't use. It feels so great, we can move in our home now, and we have stuff the kids want and use. Ryker was super attatched to the coffee table, but we moved it out anyway....quick like a bandaid!!! I am so happy to say, that we feel lighter.
We are also going to de clutter our bodies.
I have been slacking the past two years, and it is not okay with me. I am going to admit, I hate having running be so hard on me. I breathe hard, and it is so hard on my legs and hips. I need to lose weight. I am not concerned with a number for the first time in my life, I just want to feel good about myself. I need to admit that food has always been there for me, and my hips. I am not going to use food for comfort anymore. I am going to do this for me, and only me. Well, my kids and Mike too. They deserve not a crazy mom, and someone fit enough to be able to do anything they want. Mike deserves a happy and confident wife.
I am committing to making better decisions. I will make this part of my everyday life, whether it is food, or going to sleep earlier, or anything. I will be better, I have to.
I was so nervous to see all the people in California that knew me when I was super tiny, maybe too tiny. They all accepted me and loved me, it was so great to feel that. I was accepted. Now I need to accept and love myself.
Thank you dear friends for helping and loving me thru this transformation......I am slowly coming along. I didn't do it alone. Mike and the kids have a lot to do with this, but it is Heavenly Father and Jesus. They are saving me.
I am sorry for all the burdens that I have put on many people throughout the years, just because I was not comfortable with myself. No more, people, no more. If I make a bad choice, it is on me, I will not take it out on others and make them feel bad for me. I will do better, I will laugh more, and I will love more!!!!
On a side note: I hurt my shoulder just over using it. They said it was bersitis. I was in a sling for a week and a few days. Mike and the kids helped out so much, thanks guys!
My shoulder is doing better, still pretty achey, but it is mobile and I am trying to use it. I am back running and loving that. It feels great. I need write down how I feel after I do something versus how I feel when I eat something "yummy", because it really makes me feel not good, bloated, nasty, and I actually hurt. When I eat healthy, I am loving it, the non bloatness, and I don't hurt, I feel like I can still move and not gush out everywhere...
My doctor says.
"Our bodies are made for hugging, loving, service, and playing", he also says "we will not have to weigh in to get into heaven."
Maybe this was too much info for the blog world, but I am just being real. I have some stuff to work on, and I am ready to do it:) BREAKTHROUGH!!!!!
Mike, Jess, Hailey and Ryker. We are loving and living life...TOGETHER!
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Thanksgiving 2012
We had thanksgiving here at our home this year. Mikes mom and siblings were out of town, and my family went on a vacation as well. We cooked all day and had the dinner at 5:00, his dad had to work so he was able to come be with us as well. We had:
Turkey, stuffing, mashed potaoes, gravy, salad, veggie tray, rolls, and pie! It was all washed down with sparkling cider. It was such a fun day.
We went and saw Jasons grave and put flowers on it and a car. We also saw Mikes grandmas grave. I was able to use a lot of the dishes for preparation that I got from my grandma and grandpa Fronk. I felt their help every step of the way.
I am grateful for family, friends, my husband and my partner, and the church.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!
Turkey, stuffing, mashed potaoes, gravy, salad, veggie tray, rolls, and pie! It was all washed down with sparkling cider. It was such a fun day.
We went and saw Jasons grave and put flowers on it and a car. We also saw Mikes grandmas grave. I was able to use a lot of the dishes for preparation that I got from my grandma and grandpa Fronk. I felt their help every step of the way.
I am grateful for family, friends, my husband and my partner, and the church.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!
California Vacation.....FINALLY!!!!
We finally made it back to California.....oh, how we have missed everything about that place, the people, the food, and the weather:).....not so much the traffic.:(
We have been planning on this trip now for two years. Our friend came home from his mission and we decided to go to his homecoming. He is so grown up...we have not seen him in 5 years. Our trip started Friday as we drove to St. George, and stayed with our friends Brent and Lyndzi and their 3 cute children. It was a great time, thanks for everything guys!!!
On Saturday we didn't have to be any place at any particular time, so we just hung out, Mike caught up with Brent and his new business, and Lyndzi and I did the kids thing, and we got to catch up too. This was really relaxing for me, and much needed.
We then took the kids to Del Taco, and let them play before we headed out of town. We didn't know that we weren't going to stop until California, which was our destination, or I am sure we would have done a last bathroom break there. The kids did so well though. Mike had a treat, when we hit California and the kids were a little antsy, he broke out a DVD player. I didn't know about this, but it was a neat thing. I have been against these things for years, but it was okay, and the kids had limited time on it, so I justified it.
We made it to California around 6:30 their time, we had dinner with our friends, whom let us stay with them. Matt and Deborah, are amazing. They had chicken nuggets for the kids and made from scratch lasagna. Everything tasted so good.
They don't have children yet, and they were so kind and patient and accomodating to our kids. The next morning Ryker threw up in the bed!:( I was in the shower getting ready for church, and so he did it all over Mike and in the bed... I was numb, didn't know what to tell them, and they were so nice, and we helped them put it in the washer. They didn't say anything, but "no problem." They were so kind.
On Sunday, we went to our old church....oh, how good it was to be back!!! Mike and I feel that we grew up out there, so it was pretty special to go back, and have the feelings we had. It was so great to see all the familiar faces we just loved and still love. I cannot believe it has been so long, 5 years, there has been a lot of changes!! We went on a ride around Long Beach, up to the mall, around certain rodes, parks, and places where we spent a lot of time. Then we went to Scooters homecoming dinner and hung out with his family for a while. It was too fun!!! It was perfect weather, we sat around their pool, and chatted the afternoon away!!! I really love that family:)
Then we were invited to a family dinner. We had a family who adopted us into theirs.....we really like to be part of it. It was like we never left. Sure kids have gotten older, but it was the same.....so much fun and love. Ryker was not feeling the best, so I am sad that they didn't get to see his personality. Hailey jumped right in with all of the boys....so fun to see. We love our family parties, and miss them. Thanks for everything. The food was great and the people and catching up was awesome.
On Monday, we were presented with something we didn't know was happening. When we lived out there I was a Beehive leader in the Young Womens, well I really got close to a few girls and hated to leave them....Katie was one of them. She is now older and so beautiful, and she works at Disneyland. She signed us in for both parks, and got my kids hats!!! We were so thrilled. My kids did not know what to think. I have not spoken much about Disneyland, because I knew that it might not happen, and did not want to get there little hopes up. Katie made my dreams come true. Many times in the day I got teary eyed and had to choke it down, to see them have fun and love the magic was just so much fun. They loved everything about that place, and so did I. We rode Peter Pan with Katie, and then she had to go take a nap. We then rode Pirates, tow mater ride, the bumper cars, nemo, teacups, dumbo, peter pan again, and pirates again. We waited for winnie the pooh, but it broke twice while we were in line....sad, but we did get to see Katie working, she is too fun!!!
We ended the trip with Hof's Hut a local place to eat, and Ryker threw up in the car but we didn't let that stop us from getting to the beach and getting to see Mikes old work and friends at his old office. We went to Seal Beach where we have so many memories of bon fires, and watching the ocean. Hailey loved the beach and could pick sea shells all day if we let her. She is for sure a California Girl! Ryker saw the sand and said "this is the biggest sand box eber!" He loved to dig and dig and gather shells as well. We loved the feeling of riding down the coast and knowing that our life used to be there. I love that the kids were able to love the beach......like I did.
After the beach we decided to leave town, before everyone else left LA. We were still in the traffic, but we tell ourselves it would have been worse had we not left. We made it to Mesquite at 10:00 Pm. We decided to stay at a hotel. I was so sleepy and not a good co captian, and the kids were out! We stayed the night, and woke up and went to St. George, just in time to clean up more throw up. I was sad that Ryker was sick the whole time. He did so well though. We picked up Mikes phone charger and was on the way home. I fell asleep off and on the whole time. The kids were talking to Mike and helping out, so this time I didn't feel bad when I drifted into another world.
We made it home just in time to put the turkey in the fridge and go grocery shopping for the fresh veggies we needed for a thanksgiving dinner. We did all the laundry and folded most and went to sleep after showers and baths in our own beds. Tonight was the first fire in our fireplace, oh, I love to listen to that crackle!!!
Stay tuned for picture overload, thanksgiving, and more!
We have been planning on this trip now for two years. Our friend came home from his mission and we decided to go to his homecoming. He is so grown up...we have not seen him in 5 years. Our trip started Friday as we drove to St. George, and stayed with our friends Brent and Lyndzi and their 3 cute children. It was a great time, thanks for everything guys!!!
On Saturday we didn't have to be any place at any particular time, so we just hung out, Mike caught up with Brent and his new business, and Lyndzi and I did the kids thing, and we got to catch up too. This was really relaxing for me, and much needed.
We then took the kids to Del Taco, and let them play before we headed out of town. We didn't know that we weren't going to stop until California, which was our destination, or I am sure we would have done a last bathroom break there. The kids did so well though. Mike had a treat, when we hit California and the kids were a little antsy, he broke out a DVD player. I didn't know about this, but it was a neat thing. I have been against these things for years, but it was okay, and the kids had limited time on it, so I justified it.
We made it to California around 6:30 their time, we had dinner with our friends, whom let us stay with them. Matt and Deborah, are amazing. They had chicken nuggets for the kids and made from scratch lasagna. Everything tasted so good.
They don't have children yet, and they were so kind and patient and accomodating to our kids. The next morning Ryker threw up in the bed!:( I was in the shower getting ready for church, and so he did it all over Mike and in the bed... I was numb, didn't know what to tell them, and they were so nice, and we helped them put it in the washer. They didn't say anything, but "no problem." They were so kind.
On Sunday, we went to our old church....oh, how good it was to be back!!! Mike and I feel that we grew up out there, so it was pretty special to go back, and have the feelings we had. It was so great to see all the familiar faces we just loved and still love. I cannot believe it has been so long, 5 years, there has been a lot of changes!! We went on a ride around Long Beach, up to the mall, around certain rodes, parks, and places where we spent a lot of time. Then we went to Scooters homecoming dinner and hung out with his family for a while. It was too fun!!! It was perfect weather, we sat around their pool, and chatted the afternoon away!!! I really love that family:)
Then we were invited to a family dinner. We had a family who adopted us into theirs.....we really like to be part of it. It was like we never left. Sure kids have gotten older, but it was the same.....so much fun and love. Ryker was not feeling the best, so I am sad that they didn't get to see his personality. Hailey jumped right in with all of the boys....so fun to see. We love our family parties, and miss them. Thanks for everything. The food was great and the people and catching up was awesome.
On Monday, we were presented with something we didn't know was happening. When we lived out there I was a Beehive leader in the Young Womens, well I really got close to a few girls and hated to leave them....Katie was one of them. She is now older and so beautiful, and she works at Disneyland. She signed us in for both parks, and got my kids hats!!! We were so thrilled. My kids did not know what to think. I have not spoken much about Disneyland, because I knew that it might not happen, and did not want to get there little hopes up. Katie made my dreams come true. Many times in the day I got teary eyed and had to choke it down, to see them have fun and love the magic was just so much fun. They loved everything about that place, and so did I. We rode Peter Pan with Katie, and then she had to go take a nap. We then rode Pirates, tow mater ride, the bumper cars, nemo, teacups, dumbo, peter pan again, and pirates again. We waited for winnie the pooh, but it broke twice while we were in line....sad, but we did get to see Katie working, she is too fun!!!
We ended the trip with Hof's Hut a local place to eat, and Ryker threw up in the car but we didn't let that stop us from getting to the beach and getting to see Mikes old work and friends at his old office. We went to Seal Beach where we have so many memories of bon fires, and watching the ocean. Hailey loved the beach and could pick sea shells all day if we let her. She is for sure a California Girl! Ryker saw the sand and said "this is the biggest sand box eber!" He loved to dig and dig and gather shells as well. We loved the feeling of riding down the coast and knowing that our life used to be there. I love that the kids were able to love the beach......like I did.
After the beach we decided to leave town, before everyone else left LA. We were still in the traffic, but we tell ourselves it would have been worse had we not left. We made it to Mesquite at 10:00 Pm. We decided to stay at a hotel. I was so sleepy and not a good co captian, and the kids were out! We stayed the night, and woke up and went to St. George, just in time to clean up more throw up. I was sad that Ryker was sick the whole time. He did so well though. We picked up Mikes phone charger and was on the way home. I fell asleep off and on the whole time. The kids were talking to Mike and helping out, so this time I didn't feel bad when I drifted into another world.
We made it home just in time to put the turkey in the fridge and go grocery shopping for the fresh veggies we needed for a thanksgiving dinner. We did all the laundry and folded most and went to sleep after showers and baths in our own beds. Tonight was the first fire in our fireplace, oh, I love to listen to that crackle!!!
Stay tuned for picture overload, thanksgiving, and more!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
rykers birthday photos
Love-Mom, Dad, and Hailey
Ryker is 5!!!!
Today is Rykers birthday, this little man is five! He woke up and states "I am five today and I will be five tomorrow!" He is so excited to be five....it makes me sad that my "baby" is five. We took him to volleyball to play with his friends, even though I didn't play. (another blog at another time...)
We then went to Wendys to get lunch, his choice, he wanted a kids meal, and a frosty! We made his treats for his preschool, he wanted brownies and a candy bar, in a bag, with a green twist tie.
He has been on cloud nine, this year for his birthday all he wanted was a "gentlemen" outfit. He and I went shopping and we got him a suit, and a vest outfit, and a bow tie.....I could die, it is soooo cute. (We also could not leave without getting Hailey a beautiful dress as well.)
He and Hailey danced while in their outfits, and I had to leave the room, I was tearing up! They are getting too big, just too big.
Sooooo.....tonight we are going cowboy bowling. He wanted to go, this is all he wanted to do. Bowling and Pizza, we invited his great friend to come with us. He is going to be so surprised when he comes to our home, and hangs out with us all night.
I will post pictures later of the day....this should be fun.
WE ALL LOVE OUR RYKER!!! Happy Birthday buddy.
5 things that I love about you:
You cuddle with me.
You hug me and kiss me on the cheek and say "I love you into the sun".
You are so funny and make me laugh all of the time.
You remind me everynight to say "what do you do if you need help?" and then you yell, MOMMY!!!
You are so loving, kind, fun, all boy, hilarious, and you make friends so easily!
We then went to Wendys to get lunch, his choice, he wanted a kids meal, and a frosty! We made his treats for his preschool, he wanted brownies and a candy bar, in a bag, with a green twist tie.
He has been on cloud nine, this year for his birthday all he wanted was a "gentlemen" outfit. He and I went shopping and we got him a suit, and a vest outfit, and a bow tie.....I could die, it is soooo cute. (We also could not leave without getting Hailey a beautiful dress as well.)
He and Hailey danced while in their outfits, and I had to leave the room, I was tearing up! They are getting too big, just too big.
Sooooo.....tonight we are going cowboy bowling. He wanted to go, this is all he wanted to do. Bowling and Pizza, we invited his great friend to come with us. He is going to be so surprised when he comes to our home, and hangs out with us all night.
I will post pictures later of the day....this should be fun.
WE ALL LOVE OUR RYKER!!! Happy Birthday buddy.
5 things that I love about you:
You cuddle with me.
You hug me and kiss me on the cheek and say "I love you into the sun".
You are so funny and make me laugh all of the time.
You remind me everynight to say "what do you do if you need help?" and then you yell, MOMMY!!!
You are so loving, kind, fun, all boy, hilarious, and you make friends so easily!
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Bronchitis.....again!
This week I took Ryker to the doctor, his cough just wasn't going away, and it sounded as if it was getting lower. It was Bronchitis again, with a side of pink eye! He quickly got put on an antibiotic, he is eating now, sleeping, and chasing his sister around again.
I can't begin to say how much modern medicine has changed my life, and has kept my son alive. I am so grateful for smart doctors, and non-penicillion (spelling) meds that can get my little guy healthy again. Not only has medicine been a big help in Rykers life, Hailey had strep last week, and one dose of medicine and she was back to her normal self, and back to school in no time.
I love that they can be healed, and I love that they are currently asleep, resting well. Like kids should.
I can't begin to say how much modern medicine has changed my life, and has kept my son alive. I am so grateful for smart doctors, and non-penicillion (spelling) meds that can get my little guy healthy again. Not only has medicine been a big help in Rykers life, Hailey had strep last week, and one dose of medicine and she was back to her normal self, and back to school in no time.
I love that they can be healed, and I love that they are currently asleep, resting well. Like kids should.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Halloween 2012
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