some funny stuff....and some serious stuff.....

Ryker:
We were at church, during the last song we see that Ryker is drawing on himself with a black marker, we take the black marker away, he had it all over his face, and said really loud, "I wanna be black!"
(I have been debating whether to post that comment or not, so if it offends people, sorry.) We did not know what to say or do. I wanted to laugh, but kept it inside. I looked at Mike and gave him the look, he is yours.
What would you have done?

Today we were going to go to the pool, and they would not stop playing to eat, and would not listen, and so I told them we weren't going.....

Hailey says:
"When my kids want to go somewhere I will just take them, because that is what a good mom does."
"The summer is almost over, and the pool is only open in the summer, waaaaaaaaa," fake crying, awesome.

We sold our VAN!!!! waaaaaahhhhhoooooooo
Reasons:
too big
couldn't park the thing and feel good about it
too big
I just never fell in love with it

So, we are a one car family right now. We really "run" errands, and I secretly love it. We save a ton of money because I don't really shop (i.e. Costco, without a car, a double jogger is big, but not costco big)
We have had lots of fun this summer:
pools
partying
eating and over eating
fireworks
camping trips
family get togethers
slip n slide fun
running
parades
car shows
and much much more!!!

This is the more serious paragraphs:

Let's discuss some of MY weight issues for a minute. I gained about 10-12 pounds marathon training. People have said don't worry it's muscle. Well, I worry, my pants don't fit as loose as they should, a little bit of WIGGLE is fine, but when you have to WALK into your jeans, wow, it really hits you, just saying. My thighs are huge, and my calves are huge(r). I have to pri on in the morning and pri off at night. Seriously?
I have started a new take on food, I want to hate it. I want to know why I eat, when I eat, and know when to stop eating. I am 141 as of this morning, for some people reading this, remember the 118 girl? ya, the 141 girl ate her! Mike says that I look healthier, which is nice, but, that brings me to my next point, it doesn't matter what people say about you...it matters what you think about yourself. I don't want to buy new pants, I want to be a size 6 forever, but is this unrealistic thinking? I have heard so much lately that it is not about the size or the number you are it is how you FEEL, but, I just am having a hard time with this.
I FEEL that I am healthy, and exercise like a mad woman, but yet cannot "shake" the extra poundage....what is wrong with me?
I run, do pilates, and do a lot more, and have started to eat a lot less. I have seen some results, but really. What is going on?
Chanda I need you right now...any advice, how do you get rid of muscle? Do I even want to, should I just get used to the size eight my thighs are and buy pants to fit them, but not fit my waist, a little help please.
I am going to post my weight every week, I am serious, I want to change my life, not my clothes. I am doing this to model good healthy lifestyle for my kids, and not week on week off, oh, cupcakes one week, don't touch them the next. Mike says moderation in all things, but once I taste it, oh, better believe I WANT MORE!!!
I will post pictures soon, I promise, we have been busy with life, well, you too probably.