Tuesday, July 13, 2010

some funny stuff....and some serious stuff.....

Ryker:
We were at church, during the last song we see that Ryker is drawing on himself with a black marker, we take the black marker away, he had it all over his face, and said really loud, "I wanna be black!"
(I have been debating whether to post that comment or not, so if it offends people, sorry.) We did not know what to say or do. I wanted to laugh, but kept it inside. I looked at Mike and gave him the look, he is yours.
What would you have done?

Today we were going to go to the pool, and they would not stop playing to eat, and would not listen, and so I told them we weren't going.....

Hailey says:
"When my kids want to go somewhere I will just take them, because that is what a good mom does."
"The summer is almost over, and the pool is only open in the summer, waaaaaaaaa," fake crying, awesome.

We sold our VAN!!!! waaaaaahhhhhoooooooo
Reasons:
too big
couldn't park the thing and feel good about it
too big
I just never fell in love with it

So, we are a one car family right now. We really "run" errands, and I secretly love it. We save a ton of money because I don't really shop (i.e. Costco, without a car, a double jogger is big, but not costco big)
We have had lots of fun this summer:
pools
partying
eating and over eating
fireworks
camping trips
family get togethers
slip n slide fun
running
parades
car shows
and much much more!!!

This is the more serious paragraphs:

Let's discuss some of MY weight issues for a minute. I gained about 10-12 pounds marathon training. People have said don't worry it's muscle. Well, I worry, my pants don't fit as loose as they should, a little bit of WIGGLE is fine, but when you have to WALK into your jeans, wow, it really hits you, just saying. My thighs are huge, and my calves are huge(r). I have to pri on in the morning and pri off at night. Seriously?
I have started a new take on food, I want to hate it. I want to know why I eat, when I eat, and know when to stop eating. I am 141 as of this morning, for some people reading this, remember the 118 girl? ya, the 141 girl ate her! Mike says that I look healthier, which is nice, but, that brings me to my next point, it doesn't matter what people say about you...it matters what you think about yourself. I don't want to buy new pants, I want to be a size 6 forever, but is this unrealistic thinking? I have heard so much lately that it is not about the size or the number you are it is how you FEEL, but, I just am having a hard time with this.
I FEEL that I am healthy, and exercise like a mad woman, but yet cannot "shake" the extra poundage....what is wrong with me?
I run, do pilates, and do a lot more, and have started to eat a lot less. I have seen some results, but really. What is going on?
Chanda I need you right now...any advice, how do you get rid of muscle? Do I even want to, should I just get used to the size eight my thighs are and buy pants to fit them, but not fit my waist, a little help please.
I am going to post my weight every week, I am serious, I want to change my life, not my clothes. I am doing this to model good healthy lifestyle for my kids, and not week on week off, oh, cupcakes one week, don't touch them the next. Mike says moderation in all things, but once I taste it, oh, better believe I WANT MORE!!!
I will post pictures soon, I promise, we have been busy with life, well, you too probably.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Sunscreen, Summer, Potty Training!

This won't be long.
I have not been so good lately at the whole blogging world, where's the marathon pictures right? They are still coming...we have been so busy OUTSIDE, doing anything and everything. Hailey loves to go bike riding, and playing with anyone who will and can play, Ryker loves anything that is outside, water, bugs, digging, any sports, and where am I? OUTSIDE, doing yardwork, and applying sunscreen, and making them take potty breaks and drink breaks. Ryker is potty trained now, still some accidents when he gets scared or something, he has the whole "this is a different potty" anxiety going on....so I bought a portable seat that can go on any potty for Hailey and we use it for him as well. Ryker discovered he can squirt last night, so, I am NOT going to be carrying around a stool for when we are other places...I am a little worried about this one.
Hailey and Ryker are doing so great. I have kids who are starting to LISTEN to me, who we can go to the MOVIES with, and who EAT, and the SLEEP thru the night now...oh, it is starting to be fun and comfortable! It's always been fun, don't get me wrong, but it was always fun-stressful.
I labeled this sunscreen because I want your opinion:
Do you put it on to NOT get skin cancer Or do you apply it because sun burns hurt and you don't want your kids to be in pain?
I was thinking a lot about this, and I don't want my kids to be mad at me that they have skin spots that are cancer, and I don't want them to hurt, so it is a win win situation. Now if I can remember to do it everytime!!
I love summer, I love sunscreen, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE not buying or changing any diapers.

Monday, May 17, 2010

No words, just Tears!

Well, Marathon day came and went....a lot of emotion!!
My mom came with me to get my running kit the day before the race, and she started crying and said, "I am so proud of you, I want to do one too!" We picked up Hailey and Emilys kit too, so cute. The kids k was the best part, so many kids so much energy.
Mike put KT tape on my IT Band injury. I tried to go to sleep, to be honest, this was the moment I had been waiting for since November. 716 miles in training later, poof, it is here.
Am I ready? Will I get removed from the race because I don't look healthy enough to finish? Will I make it to mile 17 before 11:30 before they start removing people to get the canyon open again? Can I do this?
I woke up from a very restless night at 3:30 AM. I ate a banana and a half of bagel and went to the bathroom so many times, which was a blessing, and tried to drink so much, to hydrate myself before I dehydrate myself later on that morning. I was getting dressed and to my surprise Hailey was up too, she got up to get her kit ready and catch her bus up the canyon...what? Hailey was so sad that they weren't busing the kids up the canyon too. She and Mike took me to the bus loading spot at 4:30 AM. We said goodbye, and he said see you at the finish! Tears came, didn't fall. So many runners, 5000 to be exact, and 97buses, so motivational and emotional. We had all worked for the same goal, many for different reasons, but we were all hoping to do something special that day.
I was on bus 2, and we headed up the dark canyon. I talked with a nice girl about all our nerves, and we had a few laughs, and talked about our kids and husbands, the band of support behind us. While talking I ate a half of a bagel.
We got up the canyon at 5:30 AM, I looked out the windows, and bonfires everywhere, and pottys. I was so excited to be there, and feel so alive. I had been debating all night and all morning what to run in, I ended up taking off my long sleeve, and the tights. I ran in shorts, two tanks, and a jacket to begin with. The sun came up, and it was light and so beautiful. It was so amazing to be with so many people who share the same crazy dream.
Well, 6:50 came and we lined up by by our pacer flags. I got right next to ten and felt good about that. I ran with the same girl for about the first four miles, and that was great. We ran passed this cute couple blasting from their car "Hear comes the Sun", the were holding hands and waving. So cute, tears came, I held them back again. Trista the girl I was running with stopped to take off some of her clothes and told me to go on. I did, and soon found a cute couple running together with her husband coaching her, I said "good advice, I am going to keep up with you," and then they stopped to go to the bathroom. I kept going. I kept my eye on one girl that I wanted to get up with. I did and I ran with Harmoni for the next twelve miles. We could not believe we were out doing this, and how fast it went. I quickly learned her story, she was running it for her mom who had polio as a child and now cannot walk. She was so nice. We found more people to run with and all of a sudden we had a team. I ran with Jeff who was older and had ran about 100 marathons, but this was his first in 30 years. We found Jen, and Raelyn, and we motivated each other, talked to each other, made each other laugh, and coached each other. I felt so great at mile 20, I left my team. Was that mean?
I ran down the canyon passing people, and feeling so great. At mile 23, I thought to myself, I got this. Then the crowd began, it was so emotional for strangers cheering and they don't even know you, just supporting you on the biggest day. I cried and the crowd said good job, and I said you are making me cry. I got to mile 24 and this was the hardest for me. I ran through though and had a great time. I saw mile 26 mile marker and decided to walk a block so I could finish strong. I finished with Sarah and Annie yelling my name. It was an out of body moment, I really didn't know what to feel. I just wanted to see my family who helped me train so good. They called Sarah and quickly made their way through the crowds, and we hugged. Then we had to go over and watch Hailey and Emily run her race. Hailey did so good, she ran the mile in 12 min and 30 sec. Emily ran it in 10 min and 15 sec. I ran the marathon 26.2 miles in 5 hours and 4 min. I was sore and tight.
We went to El Matador as a runner family, and had a great meal. I went home and stretched and took a bath. I iced and stretched the rest of the day. We had a family BBQ that night, it was so much fun to talk and relax with all of my family.
They all were talking about running the marathon relay! Did they catch the runner bug?
I had the best experience, awesome weather, beautiful mountains, and no wild life, no pain until mile 21, I started feeling it.
Will I do it again? I am not sure, but it was the best feeling ever, and I would love to feel that again.
Thanks for all the texts, phone calls, and coming up to watch me. It was such a special day for me, and I believe you all had a big part in it.
Thanks to you, I am a marathoner!!!!
Pictures to come, I promise. I just don't know how to do them.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Tonsils!!

Well, it has been yet another busy week around here. Ryker got his tonsils out on Tuesday, they did a great job. They showed us his tonsils, man they were huge. The doctor said you think these are huge, you should have seen the adenoids. We stayed at the clinic to have them keep an eye on Ryker for a few hours. We came home, and he ate bread sticks, pudding, Popsicles, and lots of drinks. Then Mike and Hailey left to go and look at bikes, and that's when everything happened......
Ryker took a drink and had a little bite of bread stick, I was going to put him down for a nap, well, he wanted to take a nap out in the front room watching Hockey, and began to throw a fit, so I let him settle down, but he wasn't settling down, he was turning gray-blue, and his eyes were rolling back in his head, and his arms were stiff as well as his neck. I rushed outside, holding Ryker and freaking out, to see if Mike was still here, because he was the one who always has saved Ryker in the past. He was gone, and so was my baby. I was holding him, screaming, please help me, somebody help me, please, trying to save Ryker, by putting him over my knee, and hoping to hear him cry, breath, gasp something. Grandpa came out, and got me inside, asked if he was breathing, and I said No,we put him over the couch end and finally Ryker was back with us crying. I was so frightened. Many neighbors came to see what the crazy woman screaming was all about, and they were pleased to know that everything was okay. I thought he had choked on his bread stick bite. I called Mike and told him what had happened. He asked if he needed to rush home, I wanted him too, but I said no. I knew it was important to Hailey to be with Daddy.
Well I got him down for a nap watching Hockey, and then he woke up. Mike was home and so was Hailey at this point. Some friends were over so Ryker and I went outside to say hello. Hailey wanted her plasma bike, so I went and got it out for her, and that is when it happened again, Ryker was throwing a fit, and I handed him to Mike. Well Mike was like, where's his eyes, he turned blue and gray again, then he came back, I was in panic and then he did it again. So this was the third time, this time no food in his mouth. We called the clinic, Heidi who was over took Hailey and bathed her, and made her feel safe. We continued to put drinks and pudding down Ryker. Then I went and got Hailey, who really wanted to stay with fun Heidi.(thank you so much)
We contacted the doctor and he said to bring him back up to the clinic to test oxygen levels. The nurse said to eat if everything seemed okay. So we ate, well, I shoveled food in my mouth and Haileys' and was ready to roll out. Mike was not quite done, and our other neighbor came over with her oxygen machine and tested Ryker for us. His numbers were perfect. We said goodbye to them and then it happened again. Ryker went in the other room to find goggles, and got frustrated, and was laying on the ground gasping for air and crying. We thought did he just do it again? We rushed over to the neighbors with the machine, and got another reading, still great numbers...what the heck?
I rushed in like mamma bear, and ordered we go now, that this is not normal and it is not okay.
We went up, they monitored and everything was fine, Ryker ate a few more Popsicles, and was told we could stay the night for free. They told me he was holding his breath to the point of passing out...and if he does it again, just blow air into his mouth...oh, is that all? That is so much easier said than done, I was so stressed out, and scared. They related him to a computer, that when the computer shuts down it needs to rebut, and they said he can't hold his breath for very long. I was like can he die, and they said, I can't say no, but it is unlikely. I asked the nurse what she would do if this was her child, and she said I would take him home and sleep by him.
We thought about it and we decided to come home and give him a blessing. I slept by him, and he did great. He needed medicine, and I was there to give it to him, along with drinks.
The next days have all been a blur....very moody Ryker, who doesn't want to eat or drink, we have to take hockey time outs to drink.....sleep deprived, moody Mike, sleep deprived, moody and stressed out me....and Hailey just wants to play with everyone on our block!
I hope this is on the mends. These days have been some hard ones, but we are so grateful that our Ryker is here with us. I told him, that it is not his time to go. We have not had any episodes since, and we are glad. No more snoring, sleep apnea, and he does not breath like Darth Vader. It is weird not to hear him, and knowing that it is all because of the lack of tonsils.
Running update:
I ran 12 on Saturday and biked 6. Hopefully this is okay. A little bit of cross training never hurts right? I had the worst running day of my life, seriously, Mike had to come get me after 6, and I did 6 at home. Really? I was so mad at myself, actually very angry. My body won that fight, I just kept thinking you can do this, you need to do this, and I just couldn't....failure, in my mind, failure.
Tomorrow we will post pictures of Ryker and Hailey. Ryker has taken Haileys' baby crib, and flipped it on its' side and shoots balls in it, it is his Hockey net! What a smart little boy, and he is good with his aim. Hailey got a new bike, with training wheels, and she loves it. My kids are growing up, and I absolutely love them. They are so nice and funny. I am so grateful that I am their mommy.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Well, this just might be the "IT" factor!

We have been playing dodge ball, lately, but more with people really. Ryker is getting his tonsils out next week and he cannot be sick, or they won't take them out. So, if you had a party this weekend, which there were three killer ones, we could not attend. I am sorry. Hailey really wanted to play with her friends today, and asked if we were still playing the game, which I replied to with a BIG YES!!!
We de-cluttered our kids' room and started on the rest of the house. Oh, what a nice feeling, to give to others and have so much more room, and to have the toys GONE, that aren't touched unless the neighbors are around, uggggh, then comes the Lysol, I HATE germs, repeat, HATE them!
We also had a car cleaning party, and a dandelion up-rooting party. Ryker loved to help find the yellow flowers, and Hailey loved picking them. No one has taught her that they can put yellow on your skin, yet!
Then it was off for my 19 mile run.
I need to back up to last week, and give you some updates. Well, last week was my 18 mile run, and I just thought well, why not 20? I need to do it for sure, and with Ryker getting surgery, who knows what that week will bring, right? So I did it. I upped my mileage from 17 to 20, is this stupid, YES!!! It took me four hours, exactly. I started hurting really bad at mile 17, and I thought you just need to pull yourself together and finish! I did, and I could hardly walk. I hurt my IT Bands. Monday brought doctor visits, and Styrofoam roller, that I have to lay on and roll for 15 minutes twice a day. He said that I could still run, and I do my rolling faithfully to insure that. I am so thrilled that I can still train.
So, back to today. I was going to run to the provo temple, and home again to roll, and then head out again....
Nope, I ran to the provo temple, and just kept on going...right up to the mountain road, down foothill, (where I met a gardner, we talked weeds and trails for a minute, and she gave me water, what a nice lady,) okay back to the run, to the Riverwoods, and then to the canyon for a couple of miles, refilled my two waters, then turned around and came home on state street!
Mike and the kids met me at the last half mile, it was so good to see them, and they finished the run, the 21 mile run with me. I finished at 4:45, and I left at 1:05. Now that is amazing for me, three hours and 40 minutes!!!
OH WHAT A FEELING 21 MILES CAN BE, this is MY IT!!!!
My knee, thigh, and hips are tight tonight, but other than that....I feel so great. I was telling my mom that "it feels so good to know that you have that kind of stuff in you, and the endurance." These are the kind of runs, that leave me feeling, hey, "maybe I will be able to do this marathon stuff..."
I will keep you posted on post surgery...please keep him in your prayers, I am so worried about him, and his big tonsil removal.
Thanks.

Monday, March 29, 2010

I wish I had proof!

This weekend was supposed to be another 16 mile run. I was thrilled to do this again, and this time was going to go with a running club. They told me at the running store that someone would do 16 miles....well, they didn't want to and some of them didn't have the time. We ran on two different trails, and one was on a couple of mountain sides, I would have normally hiked these mountains and looked at the beautiful views and would have been satisfied, but no, we ran and ran, through switchbacks, big vertical trails, and I ran, sometimes feeling no movement, but I was running. I have never done trails before, and they are nothing to take too lightly. I never would have done this on my own, I was so proud of myself.
We did nine miles in the mountains, and a new running friend and I did 4 more on the river trail. My goodness, the views of this run were AMAZING!!! I am trying to tell myself, the 13 miles, including HILLS that I would have not got in on my 16 mile run, compensated the run I was going to do. But, you know me, I added 3 miles to my various runs this week. Instead of two today, I ran three.
My new friend Malana called me a hard core runner....I don't call myself that nor do I think I am. I just enjoy doing something I never thought I would do, or be part of. This is great, I love running, and the self motivation you develop from it. This is the hardest thing I have ever done, but I am doing it.
I also was looking at my schedule and April 20, Ryker is getting his tonsils out, ya, April 24, my longest run EVER, so far, 20 miles.
What have I done to myself?
Thanks to my family for getting better, and being a big support to me. I know that you are all behind me. Also, thanks to my friends who support me as well, I hope you feel my support in your lives as well.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Sick, moody, and just plain nasty!

This is what we have been busy with, hence, no blog time....
Mike had not been feeling the best for a long time, and we were exposed to Strep Throat the week before.
Hailey came down with pink eye on Tuesday the 16, and her and Mike were seen by the doctor. Hailey got some drops, while Mike got an antibiotic called in, just in case it got worse. Haileys' eyes were nasty and closing more and more each second, it seemed like that anyway.
Ryker started coughing the next night, and all of you know by now, that when Ryker gets sick, he's bad. He also got pink eye in one of his eyes, not too bad though, we caught it.
Mike went and filled his amoxicillion and he was not happy it was that, he needs the big augmentan to get feeling better.
So, on Monday, no relief from Ryker, actually he was getting worse, I took him in to the doctor, and he had Bronchitis, and I had the doctor give me his opinion about the whole tonsil issue. We are getting them out, April 20, 2010.
They both got pink eye, or at least a little bit of it, so we did drops again, the doctor gave us ten refills.
I also had the doctor call in a new prescription for Mike, this time augmentan.
All this time I have been doing laundry, laundry, cleaning, cooking every meal, doing the dishes, disinfecting, and washing everything, lysoling everything, and more laundry.
I cannot tell you how many loads of sheets I have done.
Hailey is doing better, actually a lot better, coughs at night a little, but all in all she is great. No goopy eyes.
Ryker is doing much better, last day of azithrimycin today. No more goopy eyes, but still coughs every now and then.
Mike, after staying home two days, he went back to work on Thursday, and is there again today. Mike has thought that he ended up with the flu, he had bad body aches, was so moody, fever, sore throat, and chills. He is still on the beloved augmentan.
I have had a sore throat since Sunday, but that is my only thing, I am doing good.
If a mom gets sick who takes care of her?