A struggle....

This isn't a big deal, but kind of.

I have been loving the weather lately, and this is the first year without my jogger. I know, it's a stroller right? I still have it, but it is up on the top shelf of the garage, because in Nov. I thought that the kids would be too big (and they are), and that I would not want to use it anymore. I don't want to, but I do, but either way I just miss it. I just have to run, while they are riding their OWN bikes, or running themselves. It is a new kind of exercise for me to get used to, it is fun and nice, but man they are fast......I am going to have to get in good shape to keep up!! I was running by myself yesterday, outside, (thanks Mike)  and I felt so small to the big cars, and not having the kiddos with me, and I missed having to watch out for my jogger of kids in front of me....I felt a little uneasy. I might be using the treadmill A LOT.

I was coming into my driveway and few seconds after them, and my neighbor said, "that is a great workout." I said, out of breath, "ya it is"......I said "man I miss the stroller".....and she then said something that was so clear to me, she said, "you miss the control huh?" I do. I miss where to go, how long, speed, stops, I just miss it. I was nice and let them pick the run route a lot, and we always ended at a park, but now we end up there a lot sooner, and I am one of those moms doing squats, lunges, and jack squats and dips, all using playground equipment.

I asked Mike to get my stroller down, or expressed that I missed it today, and then I remembered I probably wouldn't even be able to push the thing......my shoulder is still in recovery mode. I wouldn't be able to do that, and then I almost cried, how am I going to start the LAWN MOWER this spring and summer....I mean a pull start and all. I told Mike that we might have to get a turn key one, he laughed and I had (almost) tears!

Am I a HOT MESS or what? Is this normal to feel a little empty when your kiddos get bigger and grow out of routines?

I do love the phase we are in, I mean, I love showing my kids that exercise is fun and that we all can do it together.

losing teeth-next phase for us.

Well, Hailey has finally lost some teeth. She lost the first one in Feb. at a party, when Ryker "punched" it out. Mike and I both tried so hard a few nights before, and Ryker just got it out so easy! Why didn't we think of that?
Well, a few days after the toothfairy came for Hailey, Ryker informed me that he lost a tooth as well! He was eating nerds, and he pretended he lost one. He put it under his bed that night, the tooth fairy left a fake dollar for a fake tooth. He was not happy, this was a real tooth, and he wanted the real $!
Last night Hailey wanted to tie her new lose tooth to the door and shut it. Her and Mike watched a lot of videos on you tube, and got the method down. I tried to tie the floss to the tooth, man those teeth are slippery! I could not get it. Mike ended up getting it to stay. Mike started the video camera. I turned around, I couldn't look. Hailey shut the door, and out came her tooth, JUST LIKE THAT!!! She says it is so easy. She made a phone call and told of her braveness, she was so proud of herself, and so were we.
As you would guess, both kids had teeth under their pillow last night. Hailey got real $, and Ryker got fake $. This time they were both soooo happy.
I kind of hate the whole lose tooth noise, it actually makes me not feel so well. I'm so glad that the door can be the bad guy.
I'm just glad she shut her own door, this mom could and never would do that to her! (Or Ryker when he eventually will have loose teeth.)

I hope everyone has a great warm weekend!!!! I can't wait. YARD WORK is calling my name, and bike rides, and runs, this will be a good one for sure. Maybe we will go to a few parks as well.

More conversations!

So we were in the car, and Hailey reads a sign:

The sign: Widow, anything helps.

She thought it said Window, anything helps. They want a window?

They both asked what a widow was after I corrected them. I said it is a person who has lost a husband or a wife.

Hailey: Oh, how sad.

Ryker: Well, we gotta find them!!! We need to help find them, if they loosed them, mom, stop the car.

Hailey: That means that they died Ryker and now they are in the ground, they know where they are!

I don't think death is a funny subject at all. I do, however, think their little minds working so hard to figure out what is going on is hilarious!

on the way to school....

Conversations with the kids:

Mom: "Don't suck on your jacket sleeves today, it is just nasty."

Hailey: "Ya, I know, I don't want to get hand, foot and butt disease."

Mom: "I don't want you to get that either!!"

We laughed and laughed.

But seriously, sucking on sleeves is just plain nasty!!

This week the kids have had no TV, they have been hitting and kicking kids much older than them in public......not okay with me.  We have had a lot of talks about this and we are getting a plan of action. I hope that this is a phase, I don't mean for kids to get hit and kicked when we just are going to a Blue and Gold banquet......I had to just breathe and leave!

We have had to come up with a TON to do. We play games, talk about living in New York as a elf, and going to the North Pole.  Rykers imagination is great!! We play chalk, and do bubbles, he really needs SUMMER as do I.

When Hailey is home, we read and do homework and play school. We have tried going shopping, but they get so sad when we leave a store empty handed, they don't quite understand "window shopping" yet, they don't get rewards when they throw big fits, and then hit. Does this make me a bad mom?

Sorry this is random, just thoughts that needed to be documented.