Monday, February 28, 2011

Fresh start!

new home.
new rules, no food anywhere, the kitchen is where it is made and where it stays.
new eating habits need to start.
new trails for running need to be found.
new driveway to shovel.
new rooms, they love having their own rooms.
new quality of life.
new dreams at night, we all sleep soooo good here.
new friends.
new ward. (same songs, hailey was amazed!)
new garbage day.
new recycle can.
new commute.
new found sunshine.
new beautiful lit buildings at night and in the am, hailey loves to see the lights of buildings, we were in the basement before.
new sunsets in rykers room. he loves to see it every night, and we all watch it together.
new big yard.
new double garage.
new shed.
new.
we miss the old.
miss seeing grandpa, and mikes family.
old neighborhood.
old routines.
old ward, who helped move us, thank you sooo much.
old big door that my jogger could fit through with ease.
former friends, because we are not old, we miss you all.
former running friends, some i didn't even get to say goodbye.
old runs, man, i had those things clocked and timed, with and without jogger.

same old stuff just a new place for all of them to happen and be in. we love our new house and a fresh start. we are excited, and ready for our new life and new adventures. it is great to live so close to my family. love, love, love it!

we had sooo much help with moving out and moving in. thank you to all of you who helped, and gave to our family a lot of your time and back muscles. we love and appreciate everything. we had people come up from orem to help us, yes they traveled....can you even believe that? i am so amazed with the generous people in this world, and i am grateful that they are our lifer friends. i hope i can help them one day, and show them how grateful we are.

i exercised for an hour this morning, with unpacking and everything, haven't had much time for that, hopefully i can make that a new routine. i only exercised two times last week, it was sad for me, i had to tell myself that moving furniture, and unpacking and moving my body all day was still exercise. i was not too convincing, but the treats were, holy cow, too many treats last week. i am trying to be better, i need to. i have had some issues with this section of my life to say the least. i will be better.
fresh start, remember?

Monday, February 7, 2011

What a new post? Are you for real?

We have been busy here:
Christmas was great, and the new year brought new projects to mind, and new goals. Mike is starting a business, and that was number one, to get it rolling and registered. I had my own plans, run faster and longer, eat better, stop buying those yummy junk foods that I always bring home, make my blog private, be a better mom and wife, friend, daughter, de-junk my house and give things away,go to the doctor and get well child checks, me a physical, dentist cleanings, and just have fun with my family....
well...things change right?
We put that all on hold until the beginning of January, and then we started to do things, by going to the dentist and doctor. The kids got shots, Hailey was brave at the dentist, 2 cavities and a baby root canal (?what the heck, I thought I was really good with her brushing, I felt sooo bad) Ryker didn't even let them in, the dentist looked at his smile, and said that he had good enamel. Ryker was really great with Hailey getting dental work, he held her hand and asked if she was okay. It was really cute, he worries soooo much about her.
We almost bought a house, and put it off for reasons that I did not know, it was kind of sad, I really liked it but it was not in the BEST location, and it DIDN'T have a YARD! We passed on it. Mike had put the starting of the business on hold to, for a reason I did not know.
I went to the doctor and got some SAD (but much needed) news....
Apparently I am ADDICTED to running....not in a good way. The doctor said that I am on the verge of an eating disorder. What? I had no clue that eating anything you want and exercising the extra calories was dangerous or naughty. I guess I have had this for awhile. I seriously had no clue. I was told to give my scale to Mike, read Intuitive Eating, only exercise for 5 days for an hour a day, and NOT count calories. I was put on restriction. The doctor asked if I was motivated to get up with my kids if they got up at 5:30 AM, and I said probably not, and then he asked if I would be motivated to go for a run at that time, wow, what an eye opener. When I was training for my marathon, I would not even be able to sleep knowing I was going to get a good run in, in the morning, I would be sooo excited to run, wow, I really needed a fix, didn't I? He then asked me "Why do you think I am doing this?" I said because you are mean, and then I cried. He said, no, I am doing this to save your life, to save your quality of life, and to make sure HAILEY does not do this. A couple of days into this Hailey wanted to weigh herself to see if she is big enough for a booster, and I said we don't have one, wow, the biggest melt down I have ever seen, I guess I need to look in the mirror, it would have been identical for sure.
I felt terrible for the first two weeks, not weighing myself, not running as much as I would like, transforming a two hour workout a day for 6 days, into 5 days for an hour, ONLY AN HOUR, people, I was going crazy. I cried, I was moody, I was sad, I seriously did not know what my purpose was anymore, worst of all, I didn't want to gain the weight back. I know this sounds soooo extreme, but I had to go through these feelings to realize I DO HAVE A PROBLEM.
So, now I run for 30 to 40 minutes, and stretch for 30 or 20 minutes, and I do a longer run on Saturdays. I take Fridays and Sundays, OFF, which is huge for me. If I don't get a workout in, it is missed, but I am okay with this now, that is sooo big for me. I might not fit into my clothes quite yet, but maybe I need new clothes, maybe I was not at my ideal weight. I am still trying to find out.
Then we went up to my mom's for a baptism of a relative. This also helped to regroup from all this weight stuff on a Saturday. We decided to look at some houses for fun, and we found the best house! It was perfect. It is on 1/3 of an acre, in a circle, and it has a rental. (Mikes dream) It is the center of the circle, so big yard (my dream). We thought about it for a long time. Then we found out there was an offer on it, what? we are going to lose this? I thought to myself, do you know how many houses you have looked at, and now you are going to lose this one? We have looked at soooo many nice ones, put offers on too many, and I am sooo sick of the process.
We went up the next weekend also and we looked at it again, I thought no this time, that it wasn't right, we looked at a few others, nothing seemed to be working. (I guess I didn't feel no, but Mike found some things wrong with it this time, and we were just confused, it was the devil, I just know it!) Mike read this, and he said, "I didn't know that you were feeling no at this time," and I really wasn't it was just confusing, and it was just an odd feeling to have.. It was sad, we felt so good about moving at this time in our lives. Anyway, we just didn't do anything. We spent all Saturday and Sunday thinking about it and finally....we became grown ups!
On Monday January 17 we put in an offer against the other offer, on the BEST house with the rental. On Wednesday the 19th they picked OURS!!!! We are moving!!!! Mike has always wanted a rental, and this house will just work out great. It is so close to my family, and closer to Mikes work. The kids will go to school with their cousins, and Hailey will ride a bus, that is her dream.
We will miss living with Grandpa, other relatives, and this ward, everything was so great. We have had a lot of service opportunities and we will miss everyone, we have made some "lifer" friends.
Soooo.......
In the midst of moving...I sliced my finger open, I was grabbing soap in the shower and grabbed my SHAVER, bled for two hours, another doctor visit. He super glued it. It is still healing and man it hurts real bad.
Kids got croup-out of commission for a whole week. I was so tired, and they were sooo sick. Two doctor visits, almost ER visit, for a chest x ray, thought Ryker was getting pneumonia. We decided to wait it out, and they are much better, after a priesthood blessing.
Last night I went in to check on them, and Ryker was no where to be found, I looked everywhere. Then I looked at Hailey, he was in her bed cuddling with her, it was sooo sweet. Then Hailey woke up and said, "What the heck, why is Jack on my freaking pillow!" It was still really sweet. Thank goodness for medicine and breathing treatments to heal these sweet little kids.
Ryker is going through identity crisis:
For a week he was Bumblebee, then Astro Boy and now Jack (from Hook). He makes everyone call him that, he WILL correct you. He says he is Jack who plays sports. He is so sweet and has quite the imagination. Hailey is getting better from her sickness, and she is getting so big. She is quite the helper, loves to clean and loves to help pack. She and Jack are in boosters now, and I just filled out Kindergarten papers, wow! We are excited for changes, and the new life that we will have.
I really feel that everything is for a reason, our new house doesn't have a lot of storage, but that is fine. I think that is why we lived in California, to realize that you don't NEED a lot of room. Happy/great people live in homes without storage, you just do it. We also made "lifer" friends in California, that we consider family. I think I needed to have this addiction, to realize I need to have motivation in my family life, and not just in myself, and improving me. With telling close friends and family a month ago, that I was going through this, amazingly, they already knew. I just needed to find out my own way, it was hard to tell people, I was so embarrassed and ashamed that I let it go sooo far, out of control. Some people were like, ya, hello, I have told you that, or I told you that 4 years ago. Others were surprised like me, and others probably are thinking twice that they have asked me to help train them, or coach them. I hope I can get my life in order, to one day help people and motivate them in the right way and teach them the right way of doing things.
I wanted to share a thought that I heard:
When a new baby comes to this world, they are perfect right, they just came from a very loving Heavenly Father, to everyone they are perfect, their parents, especially grandparents, I think we should let that stick and remember we are perfect to those people still. I know that I should be more gentle with myself.
A HUGE thanks to Mike and the kiddos for going through all these emotions and stages of addiction with me...I know I have been a beast. I sure LOVE you all.
Also, thanks to all the friends and family who support me, in all that I do, and still love me.
Sorry this was soooo long. Thanks for reading, and sharing good news with me.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Private!

We have decided that we are going to go private. Let me know if you want to still view, if anyone is out there!
Thanks Jess and Mike

Thursday, December 9, 2010

jumpin' the morning away!

Today we went to Jump on It, the kids had a blast. I was having so much fun too, they have a mommy and me hour, on Wednesday and Friday, too fun. We do home preschool with them, and so I thought, field trip day! The kids had sooo much fun and were so tired after. Then we took it upon ourselves to go shopping and eat lunch with Grandma Nancy. We had a great day, we even watched some holiday movies.
I told Mike that I felt like a real mom today, I had a car and I took my kids places!!! I wish this teacher would have remembered her camera, a real teacher would have. I am still learning.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Today..well, yesterday!

Today we played in the SNOW, we got all dressed up, that alone took ten minutes. Then we went out and played in the snow, went for a walk, and played with some friends. We were on our way home, and we all had a snow ball fight. Rykers' laugh was too cute, and loud, and Haileys' evil laugh, well, it said "watch out". It was a lot of fun, and we should do it every day. Ryker took a nap today, the snow wore him out. He fell down in the snow twice, and it reminded me of "Ralphie on the Christmas Story", it took him a while to figure out how to roll over to get up. I tried to help him, but he didn't want me to. It all ended when Hailey hit Ryker with a snow ball, and it went down his shirt, I don't blame him for crying, really loud.
The kids and I both slept really good, and even slept in!!
I love my kids, and I love my treadmill. I run sooo much and love it, every minute. Speaking of that, no half marathons or marathons this year for me. That is a whole other story, but NEXT year for sure. I am sad about this, I will just have to do 10ks and 5ks. I have picked up kick boxing, wow, that is an amazing workout.
My friend that we visited said, do you have a car yet? I told her that Mike was still fixing the one we bought, and she said that her and her husband were talking about me, and they said that I needed to put chains on my stroller!!! Too funny, but oh, too true.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Wow, time really does fly!

I cannot believe it is already December, and really winter. So much has happened that I will only do a quick update.
I know it is not even close to September, but Hailey turned 5, and we had a few fun parties for her. She planned them. We had a family party a week before her real birthday at our house, we ate pizza and then we were off to Liberty Land. That was a lot of fun. She was really cute, and we had a blast. Many family members were able to come, it was the best. Then for her real birthday, we had 33 (not kidding) kids in our front yard, (yes, the whole primary) playing in the blow up pool, slip n sliding, ring tossing, bean bag throwing, going crazy for two hours. Then we had a pinata and some ice cream cake I had made. I think it turned out great, Hailey was sooooo happy, and thrilled. Some parents stayed to help me, that was really sweet of them. We all slept really good that night! I love her and all of her crazy energy, she makes me laugh, smile, and cry daily. I can't believe she is 5.
In October, I turned 29. I took the kids on a run to some stores, and then we went to the park and played with some cousins, it was such a beautiful day! I was surprised by a dinner made for me, the kids and Mike made me waffles, grilled toast, and strawberries, and chocolate milk. It was yummy. Then Mike surprised me and took me to the mall, he hates the mall. We went and got some quotes on some jewelery, yes, to size my ring! Then we went to Iceberg and got a free birthday shake, did you know they do them? It was a fantastic day.
For Halloween we dressed up! Hailey was a cheerleader, Ryker was a fireman, I was a french maid, and Mike was a coroner. We had a few fun parties, and ate some fun food, and got to see some great friends, that we feel are family. We also got some candy and some VERY unnecessary calories and energy.
November came, and went too fast. Ryker is now 3. He says he doesn't like to be three, he wants to be two. We threw him a family hockey party. We had it over at the church and had a blast. We had a potato bar, and won ton salad, ding dong cake,ice cream and fudge, and lots of toppings. We had the kids play hockey with their sticks, and made them hockey jerseys. We spent a lot of time making jerseys and the goals, and getting 12 hockey sticks. We had a cool party. Ryker was sooooo thrilled with this. He still has to wear his jersey everyday, and he plays hockey with the nets in the house daily. He is a really nice little boy, and I am so grateful for him. I was sad that night, because I realized I don't have babies anymore, not even really toddlers, I have KIDS!!! I love them both and would not change a thing.
For Thanksgiving, we spent it with my family. I was going to run a 5k with my sisters as Indians but it got canceled due to freezing temperatures. I ran 3.1 miles anyway, on my treadmill before we left, I wanted to feel good about eating all the yummy food. Being with family was soooo fun, I got to help with the dinner, and getting everything ready. The kids made name tags for everyone, and they put them on the chairs. I really loved the day. We then made some Indian apparel, and gladly wore it. We then went over to the park by my moms house and played dodge ball, stuck in the mud (snow), and we went on the swings. We did this all with our winter woolies on, it had snowed and was soooo cold. We had a blast, and then when we were all frozen we headed back and had hot chocolate. It was a great day. I love the holidays when we can just relax and talk and not be stressed about anything.
Now, we have sooo much snow, I don't even want to go outside. It is bitter cold, and I don't like it. I love how it looks, and I love to play in it, but not drive in it, and not run in it. Good thing for me, I don't have a car, and I have a treadmill.
What do you do during the day to get your kids energy out, when it is too cold to go outside?

Sunday, September 26, 2010

A very, very long over due post!!!

Long, over due, updates, on marathon, and reunions, and some other stuff.


Ryker and his sport of the week. We were at a family reunion, and he decided he loves golf, well, that lasted awhile. Then baseball hit, and now it is back to hockey. I secretly love hockey and the fights, the checking, the naughty boxes, but do I want Ryker to play? Well, that might be another story. Ryker said "Mom, I will be safe, it is not dangerous."

This sign made me laugh so hard, and it is so true. My husband has been my rock, and I love him so much. He has supported me in so many ways. All I can say is, ready to start training again? Thanks for everything Mike. It is not easy being married to an insane exerciser, so I have heard.

This is at my high school reunion, with my high school bestie, Annie Barney. It was fun to see everyone, but kinda weird at the same time too. I mean they were doing things, (drinking and other stuff) that was illegal last time I saw them, a part of me wanted to call the cops on them, then I remembered we are all 28, or 29! Mike was a trooper and came and stayed as long as I wanted to.


Hailey after her race, wow, she did sooo good. She ran a mile in 12 minutes and 20 seconds or something close to that. I need to be better about posting things with a fresh memory.

Me and Hailey after our races! I hope we can have the opportunity to do a lot more of these together!

My very own fan club. What awesome friends to come all the way to see a slow poke like me. It was sooo much fun having you there, thanks for coming.

This is my LITTLE sister Jodie. She is sooo funny. She plays basketball at Weber State and is in the best shape, and she could not understand why I would do something like this....no one does, unless they do it!
I loved her sign though.

This is the picture of the 91 buses lining up at 4:15 in the morning to take us crazies up the canyon.

And this is Hailey getting her kit the day before, I was so proud of her. I may have cried getting our kits, but no one saw, I hope.
I cannot believe I actually did this thing called a marathon, and that I am alive to talk about it. I want to do many more, but we will see. I am looking forward to 10/01/10, that is the day that registration begins for this again. This time, I will do it for different reasons, to beat my time, to let myself know that I am NOT a one hit wonder, and to prove that I CAN!!!

Weight check:
I was completely naughty again, and gained all the weight back a few weeks ago. But since I like to think of myself as a hard core person, I am back down to 138, and feeling okay. My goal is to be a 135 by Halloween. Can I do it? I will let you know. But I will say that I love the way my pants are fitting, good thing because it is cold here!!!