Today was an EPIC day, for all people who worry just a little bit more than average.
Hailey started kindergarten. Last night she received a blessing from her dad, and she said a prayer also, and she included, "please help mom to be brave, brave, brave, super brave," I know she is so ready and will love just every second of it but:
she rides a bus....
she is so small....
she is so sassy....
and loves attention....
and loves to talk....
she did great this morning. She got talking to some of the primary kids on the bus and they are the 5th and 6th graders on the bus, and got on with them. Not before a hug though, Ryker gave her the sweetest big hug too. They held hands the entire way to the bus stop, and of course had their backpacks, both of them. I think Ryker thought he was going to go too.
So, I talked with the bus driver and asked him what the drop off directions were, and asked if I could see where she ended up. All the rest of the kindergartners were at the front, not my Hailey, in the middle of the bus, with two older kids on each side of her. I took a picture, and she said, "mom, why are you on the bus, seriously?"
I laughed and got off the bus, and took Ryker for a run, we were talking the whole time, he was squirting me with the squirt gun, and told me the way to go, something that he never gets to do, and he got us back home.
He and I have never had this time before, just us. I have loved being at home with my kids, and this half day kindergarten is going to be so great for her, and I have to believe it will be good for all of us.
Today I will wear my brave panties, all while praying to Heavenly Father with gratitude that I didn't cry my eyes out, and to please watch over her, because I can't.
Does it ever get any easier, parents with older kids?
Mike, Jess, Hailey and Ryker. We are loving and living life...TOGETHER!
Monday, August 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Mmmmmmmm....
So, I put together this yummy sandwich, and I had to share.
Ingredients:
Baguette
artichoke hearts-canned
tomato
oregano
olive oil
white wine vinegar
provolone cheese
turkey-I added
ham-I added
purple onion
banana peppers-canned
You put the artichoke hearts, tomato, olive oil, vinegar, along with oregano in a bowl, and let them sit together.
I sliced the purple onion in rings, and added to the sandwich.
It was pictured with this mixture and only provolone cheese, well I added the sliced lunch meat, oh, sooooo good.
Mike added banana peppers to his, he loved it as well.
I should have taken a picture, but we ate it too fast!!
This is a way to have a great dinner without having to turn on your oven in this hot summer heat....I had to though, I made chicken on bleu, for my kids. They ate it up though.
Hope you are all enjoying the summer!!
Ingredients:
Baguette
artichoke hearts-canned
tomato
oregano
olive oil
white wine vinegar
provolone cheese
turkey-I added
ham-I added
purple onion
banana peppers-canned
You put the artichoke hearts, tomato, olive oil, vinegar, along with oregano in a bowl, and let them sit together.
I sliced the purple onion in rings, and added to the sandwich.
It was pictured with this mixture and only provolone cheese, well I added the sliced lunch meat, oh, sooooo good.
Mike added banana peppers to his, he loved it as well.
I should have taken a picture, but we ate it too fast!!
This is a way to have a great dinner without having to turn on your oven in this hot summer heat....I had to though, I made chicken on bleu, for my kids. They ate it up though.
Hope you are all enjoying the summer!!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
9 years!
Today Mike and i celebrate 9 years together being married. We cannot believe it has been this long, and that it hasn't been longer....does that even make sense? Together we have grown up, raised 2 awesome kids, and have become a fun family. Sure, we have our ups and downs but who doesn't. I have some hard days with the kids, and with all the STRESS that comes with life....but who doesn't. I love my family and wouldn't know what to do without them.
I was explaining to Ryker and Hailey that Mike and I were married in the LDS Bountiful Temple, and that we are a forever family, and Ryker came and hugged me, and so sweetly said, "thanks mom." Ryker always asks about death and when he dies are we going to get another Ryker, and if I would miss him....well, I would miss my family and we could not replace anyone, but we have the knowledge that we GET to be together forever. It is soooo nice and wonderful knowing that.
Today I want to be a mom and a wife, not an exerciser, not an individual, just who I have become these last 9 years, and 5 years of being a mommy. I am living the dream that I have always wanted.
Please tell me, what do I have to complain about. This is really a good life!
(If you haven't heard that song, you should, it's by One Republic, I play it often as a good reminder.)
I LOVE YOU MIC!! Thanks for all of your hard work, so that I can stay home,and have the best life, EVER!!!
JEB
ps along with 9 years comes some awesome alter names.
I was explaining to Ryker and Hailey that Mike and I were married in the LDS Bountiful Temple, and that we are a forever family, and Ryker came and hugged me, and so sweetly said, "thanks mom." Ryker always asks about death and when he dies are we going to get another Ryker, and if I would miss him....well, I would miss my family and we could not replace anyone, but we have the knowledge that we GET to be together forever. It is soooo nice and wonderful knowing that.
Today I want to be a mom and a wife, not an exerciser, not an individual, just who I have become these last 9 years, and 5 years of being a mommy. I am living the dream that I have always wanted.
Please tell me, what do I have to complain about. This is really a good life!
(If you haven't heard that song, you should, it's by One Republic, I play it often as a good reminder.)
I LOVE YOU MIC!! Thanks for all of your hard work, so that I can stay home,and have the best life, EVER!!!
JEB
ps along with 9 years comes some awesome alter names.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Here comes the Sun!!!
We have had sun lately, and it has been sooooo great. We have spent a lot of time outside and can't wait to bring out the swim stuff. The kids start swim lessons tonight and it is just in time, we did get summer weather this year,(I had my doubts) and so we will be able to go to the pools and SWIM!!!
We planted a garden, and with all the crazy weather who knows what will grow, and live. I think our cucumbers are already gone. I have hopes that our tomatoes will still grow but really who knows. I think that our peas will make it....oh, it was fun planting and weeding the garden, anyway. It teaches the kids, right?
So, I think that I have talked too much about me and my problems on this blog, so today I am going to talk about progress and solutions.
Really, things are going great, probably the best ever, actually!! I have done really well. I have been going to the doctor, and he said that he had seen progress and that he recommended some counseling with an eating disorder counselor. Well, I didn't want to do counseling alone. So, I had gone to a couple of eating disorder groups, with the 12 step program that my church puts out.(LDS) It has been amazing, and I feel that I have come thru a lot of the "core" of the problem. I think that addiction is addiction and that even if the topic is not the addiction you are working with you still can be healed, it is pretty amazing how it works. So, the class is every week here, and in some areas every day. It has been so great to see that others are being healed and getting over their addictions and not getting stuck, it is great to have the atonement working in your life. I encourage anyone who is having a problem, whether you feel that it is an addiction or not, these classes have the spirit, and they work wonders. My mom has been going with me up here, and it is for supporters of people with addictions too, really this program helps all of us.
I don't know why I felt to put this in my blog, I just know that it is working for me, I am a believer. These classes help me see me and anyone that is in my life the way our Heavenly Father and Jesus see us. We need to be gentle with ourselves, and others. I have always tried my best to be gentle with others, but I have had a hard time loving myself, and thinking I don't deserve things. Well, my attitude is changing, and I feel that I am deserving of things and that I am a nice person. I feel like I am being cocky but really it has been a week, that I look in the mirror and think wow, you are pretty, guys, this has never happened...
I feel that I have made big progress, and you can too, we all tend to hide our problems really well. Tell people about it and share with your friends and family and you will feel soooo much better. I do.
I hope someday to go to a store and try on a pair of levis and not be scared to buy them, and not be worried about the size.....I will, the Lord will help me....hopefully soon.
Thanks for all of your comments and support. I am a different person, a lot happier and easier going.
We planted a garden, and with all the crazy weather who knows what will grow, and live. I think our cucumbers are already gone. I have hopes that our tomatoes will still grow but really who knows. I think that our peas will make it....oh, it was fun planting and weeding the garden, anyway. It teaches the kids, right?
So, I think that I have talked too much about me and my problems on this blog, so today I am going to talk about progress and solutions.
Really, things are going great, probably the best ever, actually!! I have done really well. I have been going to the doctor, and he said that he had seen progress and that he recommended some counseling with an eating disorder counselor. Well, I didn't want to do counseling alone. So, I had gone to a couple of eating disorder groups, with the 12 step program that my church puts out.(LDS) It has been amazing, and I feel that I have come thru a lot of the "core" of the problem. I think that addiction is addiction and that even if the topic is not the addiction you are working with you still can be healed, it is pretty amazing how it works. So, the class is every week here, and in some areas every day. It has been so great to see that others are being healed and getting over their addictions and not getting stuck, it is great to have the atonement working in your life. I encourage anyone who is having a problem, whether you feel that it is an addiction or not, these classes have the spirit, and they work wonders. My mom has been going with me up here, and it is for supporters of people with addictions too, really this program helps all of us.
I don't know why I felt to put this in my blog, I just know that it is working for me, I am a believer. These classes help me see me and anyone that is in my life the way our Heavenly Father and Jesus see us. We need to be gentle with ourselves, and others. I have always tried my best to be gentle with others, but I have had a hard time loving myself, and thinking I don't deserve things. Well, my attitude is changing, and I feel that I am deserving of things and that I am a nice person. I feel like I am being cocky but really it has been a week, that I look in the mirror and think wow, you are pretty, guys, this has never happened...
I feel that I have made big progress, and you can too, we all tend to hide our problems really well. Tell people about it and share with your friends and family and you will feel soooo much better. I do.
I hope someday to go to a store and try on a pair of levis and not be scared to buy them, and not be worried about the size.....I will, the Lord will help me....hopefully soon.
Thanks for all of your comments and support. I am a different person, a lot happier and easier going.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Rainy old days, are getting well, old!
I am so tired of all this rain. I am grateful for it, but man, floods everywhere, and the rivers are just too high, not to mention the gray skies, and no going outside to play, no shorts and no sun. I need spring, I love love love it. I need to get my stroller fixed and get on long runs while pushing before it gets too hot, that we completely missed our lovely spring runs!
Ryker really wants to ride his new bike, a two wheeler with training wheels, and Hailey needs to get back on her bike. She fell a few times last week, and I want her to get comfortable and used to it, so she is not afraid of it. She got back on right after it, but I still want her to ride before she won't get on again.
I am proud of my kids for even wanting to ride bikes. I am so afraid of them, don't tell my kids, but I won't get on one, let alone go as fast as they do. That story will have to be for a later time, but this is the reason I do not do triathlons.
I am waiting for spring to well, spring.
I love my kids, and we had a blast today at the treehouse. It was fun to let them explore and to see their imagination come alive.
My preschool is coming to an end. It is sad really, Ryker will go to real preschool next year, and my dear Hailey is having her assessment next week for Kindergarten. Did you know that kindergarten is not required? I did not. i have heard this from a few parents who are great sources and I believe it, but I just didn't know that. What are your feelings about this, I think I will have her go because she needs the social right? Doesn't kindergarten offer a lot? She did just miss the deadline....oh..man.so confused. If only she would have been born on her due date, August 27....she came September 10....ya, don't ask!
Sorry for the tangent....
She is so excited and ready for it. We have been practicing her sight words and letter sounds and writing and writing her letters and numbers. She can count to 100, with a little help, and today she counted by two's to 20. I will miss her though, she has been fun watching. I am sad that Ryker is going to a real preschool, it has been fun helping him and watching him grow. He knows how to write some letters, knows his alphabet, can count to 30, and knows a lot of songs. He is going to be ready for his class.
Anyway, thought I would post something. I am waiting for the kids to go shopping with me, and then off to ice skating tonight. They have soooo much fun doing this. I love to see them having fun, and enjoying life.
Ryker really wants to ride his new bike, a two wheeler with training wheels, and Hailey needs to get back on her bike. She fell a few times last week, and I want her to get comfortable and used to it, so she is not afraid of it. She got back on right after it, but I still want her to ride before she won't get on again.
I am proud of my kids for even wanting to ride bikes. I am so afraid of them, don't tell my kids, but I won't get on one, let alone go as fast as they do. That story will have to be for a later time, but this is the reason I do not do triathlons.
I am waiting for spring to well, spring.
I love my kids, and we had a blast today at the treehouse. It was fun to let them explore and to see their imagination come alive.
My preschool is coming to an end. It is sad really, Ryker will go to real preschool next year, and my dear Hailey is having her assessment next week for Kindergarten. Did you know that kindergarten is not required? I did not. i have heard this from a few parents who are great sources and I believe it, but I just didn't know that. What are your feelings about this, I think I will have her go because she needs the social right? Doesn't kindergarten offer a lot? She did just miss the deadline....oh..man.so confused. If only she would have been born on her due date, August 27....she came September 10....ya, don't ask!
Sorry for the tangent....
She is so excited and ready for it. We have been practicing her sight words and letter sounds and writing and writing her letters and numbers. She can count to 100, with a little help, and today she counted by two's to 20. I will miss her though, she has been fun watching. I am sad that Ryker is going to a real preschool, it has been fun helping him and watching him grow. He knows how to write some letters, knows his alphabet, can count to 30, and knows a lot of songs. He is going to be ready for his class.
Anyway, thought I would post something. I am waiting for the kids to go shopping with me, and then off to ice skating tonight. They have soooo much fun doing this. I love to see them having fun, and enjoying life.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Busy April and May!
We have had a busy month.
We have been here and there and everywhere. I am glad that we am home and we can get back in the swing of things, the routines and all. Last week we had spring break.
Mike started an insurance company, and he is doing awesome, he will be certified soon. It has been a lot of long days with my two buddies and not a lot of daddy and husband time.
We have almost concluded a session of learning to skate. The kids are doing great. I have met a lot of awesome hockey moms and they are so sweet to my little family. Hailey really seems to like it, and Ryker is getting more comfortable on the ice. He is still wearing his hockey gear EVERYWHERE, and getting all sorts of awesome comments. Hailey started skating backwards last night, it was great to see her and feel her confidence.
We went down to my sister in laws house and sewed capes for her little guys super hero party. It was a lot of fun.
I got some more of Haileys' quilt done, it's getting there.
I found some time to run. okay, confession, a lot!
I took the kids running today and at the end Ryker was pushing the stroller and ran it into the curb, wow, front wheel totally came off. I feel like my stroller is totaled. I am glad that we have a car and that we can still get around and that I have a treadmill. I hope it is an easy fix and will be ready for the 5k on Saturday.
We went to a funeral, of our dear former neighbor.
We all went Easter at Mike's parents, and had a lot of fun.
We went to a special event for Mike's family.
We went to Mike's work and had a picnic with him.
Hailey has learned to ride her big bike without training wheels, it is so cute. She goes really fast, it is kind of scary. She loves it.
I have done a lot of yard work, and if I don't say so myself, it looks awesome. I have already mowed the lawn, and another lawn in Orem. I sure love yard work, and the beauty of it all. I helped my sister in law with her yard, and she helped me mow the lawn, for her FIRST time ever. It was great to see that now she has the confidence to mow her lawn. It is sooooo rewarding!!!
We have went to the library, the dinosaur park, the nature center, and many grocery stores, and a few Costco's. It has been quite busy, but we all survived.
I know this is all just the daily stuff, but I am glad that we can come home, and relax. I have been stressed out, on getting here and there on time, and getting the kids to eat in between. I am tired of saying "please, listen to me" "please, be quiet" "please, hurry" "stop screaming" "be careful" and "please, go to sleep, it's time" "don't walk on the tile with ice skates, only carpet".
I am happier than I have been in a long time. I am getting there people, I am. It has been five months of exploring "me", but I am almost there. I am also more tired than I have been in a long time. I love being a mom, but wow, I am sure spent. I hope other moms feel this way.
Happy mothers day to everyone. I am grateful for my mom, and all that she did for me and continues to do. I love you so much. I am grateful for my California mom as well, man I love her and miss her.
We have been here and there and everywhere. I am glad that we am home and we can get back in the swing of things, the routines and all. Last week we had spring break.
Mike started an insurance company, and he is doing awesome, he will be certified soon. It has been a lot of long days with my two buddies and not a lot of daddy and husband time.
We have almost concluded a session of learning to skate. The kids are doing great. I have met a lot of awesome hockey moms and they are so sweet to my little family. Hailey really seems to like it, and Ryker is getting more comfortable on the ice. He is still wearing his hockey gear EVERYWHERE, and getting all sorts of awesome comments. Hailey started skating backwards last night, it was great to see her and feel her confidence.
We went down to my sister in laws house and sewed capes for her little guys super hero party. It was a lot of fun.
I got some more of Haileys' quilt done, it's getting there.
I found some time to run. okay, confession, a lot!
I took the kids running today and at the end Ryker was pushing the stroller and ran it into the curb, wow, front wheel totally came off. I feel like my stroller is totaled. I am glad that we have a car and that we can still get around and that I have a treadmill. I hope it is an easy fix and will be ready for the 5k on Saturday.
We went to a funeral, of our dear former neighbor.
We all went Easter at Mike's parents, and had a lot of fun.
We went to a special event for Mike's family.
We went to Mike's work and had a picnic with him.
Hailey has learned to ride her big bike without training wheels, it is so cute. She goes really fast, it is kind of scary. She loves it.
I have done a lot of yard work, and if I don't say so myself, it looks awesome. I have already mowed the lawn, and another lawn in Orem. I sure love yard work, and the beauty of it all. I helped my sister in law with her yard, and she helped me mow the lawn, for her FIRST time ever. It was great to see that now she has the confidence to mow her lawn. It is sooooo rewarding!!!
We have went to the library, the dinosaur park, the nature center, and many grocery stores, and a few Costco's. It has been quite busy, but we all survived.
I know this is all just the daily stuff, but I am glad that we can come home, and relax. I have been stressed out, on getting here and there on time, and getting the kids to eat in between. I am tired of saying "please, listen to me" "please, be quiet" "please, hurry" "stop screaming" "be careful" and "please, go to sleep, it's time" "don't walk on the tile with ice skates, only carpet".
I am happier than I have been in a long time. I am getting there people, I am. It has been five months of exploring "me", but I am almost there. I am also more tired than I have been in a long time. I love being a mom, but wow, I am sure spent. I hope other moms feel this way.
Happy mothers day to everyone. I am grateful for my mom, and all that she did for me and continues to do. I love you so much. I am grateful for my California mom as well, man I love her and miss her.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Dear Mr. 9:30-10:00,
I call you a mister because I don't think that a misses would be so mean! Mother Nature is beautiful, so, she, naturally, is a woman, but time goes too fast and is not so patient, your a man.
I really dislike you, no matter the day, no matter how much I have done and how tired I am, I eat, eat like a crazy person!
I love nachos, cinnamon rolls, a bowl of oatmeal, really anything. I have tried an apple or banana, but that does not satisfy you.
You screw up my whole day, I do really, really good and then you come around!
Every night I think I am going to beat you, and then I give in and guess what? You win, and have won for a very long time.
I used to be soooo good, not eating anything after 7:00, and then I fell out of habit, and I fell into your trap.
I have a love/hate relationship really. I love to feel full, but I hate the calories I sleep on every night.
I need to do better AND I will. Starting tonight, because anyone can start on MONDAY, why not start today, Thursday?
Tonight I will conquer! Or, maybe I will just go to bed. Either way, you are so going down!!
Let's switch the topic:
MOTIVATION what is it exactly?
Many people tell me that I motivate them. I was told this in the last 3 places I have lived, is this a good thing or bad? I don't know if I am so crazy addicted to exercise that people just say that to make me feel good, or if I really am motivating them. I just recently moved as a lot of you know, and this has once again been brought up, I have got in touch with some high school friends and they want to run with me, and lose weight, they say they want to work out with me. I was shopping at a grocery store I used to work at and two girls want to run with me, one of them ran a 5k with me, and she said that I "pushed" her and helped her sooo much. (We finished at 28 flat! I wish I would have sprinted the last mile like I normally do, but that is fine, we finished and we felt great. Last week I ran a 25 min 3 miler, it felt so great.)
I need someone to motivate me, to be healthier and to actually count on me to do good and be good with my food choices.
Two of them just ran in with sunglasses and goggles and a hammer, and let's not forget the bandana. My family SHOULD be the most important motivator. I need to get my life in order.
As you can tell, I am still really trying to figure things out. I am getting better though. I got my scale back, and it is good just to have the option of getting on or just letting it collect dust. I still weigh 141, but that is just because of my awesome eating habits. I need to be healthier.
On a much happier note:
HOCKEY has begun! We got Ryker into developmental hockey classes, and he and Hailey are both in ice skating lessons. They do sooooo good. Hailey amazed me, she just got on the ice and went for it, if she were to fall, she just got right back up! Ryker is a little bit more hesitant, but on Tuesday he was skating by himself. He is scared of falling, but he has all the hockey pads, helmet, and gloves on, it's really cute looking. (He really has nothing to be afraid of except for having sooo much on that he can't move if he fell, Ralphie anyone?) He and Hailey have made instant friends at the skating rink, and Ryker has a lot of "hockey buddies."
People are so nice in this hockey family. We were given hockey pads, 2 pairs of skates, and this sweet lady said she has pants, gloves, and a helmet. How nice is that? I am impressed with rough and tough hockey parents and children and young adults. Ryker had an amazing two nights, and Hailey "loves to dance on ice."
We are doing great and hope that spring wants to come soon, oh, how we want be be outside. Mike is starting an insurance business so this week has brought new habits, and new routines, but we are soooo excited for him, and we are happy he is happy.
Sorry if you felt like I am rambling, I just need to figure things out and where I want to be and who I want to be.
I really dislike you, no matter the day, no matter how much I have done and how tired I am, I eat, eat like a crazy person!
I love nachos, cinnamon rolls, a bowl of oatmeal, really anything. I have tried an apple or banana, but that does not satisfy you.
You screw up my whole day, I do really, really good and then you come around!
Every night I think I am going to beat you, and then I give in and guess what? You win, and have won for a very long time.
I used to be soooo good, not eating anything after 7:00, and then I fell out of habit, and I fell into your trap.
I have a love/hate relationship really. I love to feel full, but I hate the calories I sleep on every night.
I need to do better AND I will. Starting tonight, because anyone can start on MONDAY, why not start today, Thursday?
Tonight I will conquer! Or, maybe I will just go to bed. Either way, you are so going down!!
Let's switch the topic:
MOTIVATION what is it exactly?
Many people tell me that I motivate them. I was told this in the last 3 places I have lived, is this a good thing or bad? I don't know if I am so crazy addicted to exercise that people just say that to make me feel good, or if I really am motivating them. I just recently moved as a lot of you know, and this has once again been brought up, I have got in touch with some high school friends and they want to run with me, and lose weight, they say they want to work out with me. I was shopping at a grocery store I used to work at and two girls want to run with me, one of them ran a 5k with me, and she said that I "pushed" her and helped her sooo much. (We finished at 28 flat! I wish I would have sprinted the last mile like I normally do, but that is fine, we finished and we felt great. Last week I ran a 25 min 3 miler, it felt so great.)
I need someone to motivate me, to be healthier and to actually count on me to do good and be good with my food choices.
Two of them just ran in with sunglasses and goggles and a hammer, and let's not forget the bandana. My family SHOULD be the most important motivator. I need to get my life in order.
As you can tell, I am still really trying to figure things out. I am getting better though. I got my scale back, and it is good just to have the option of getting on or just letting it collect dust. I still weigh 141, but that is just because of my awesome eating habits. I need to be healthier.
On a much happier note:
HOCKEY has begun! We got Ryker into developmental hockey classes, and he and Hailey are both in ice skating lessons. They do sooooo good. Hailey amazed me, she just got on the ice and went for it, if she were to fall, she just got right back up! Ryker is a little bit more hesitant, but on Tuesday he was skating by himself. He is scared of falling, but he has all the hockey pads, helmet, and gloves on, it's really cute looking. (He really has nothing to be afraid of except for having sooo much on that he can't move if he fell, Ralphie anyone?) He and Hailey have made instant friends at the skating rink, and Ryker has a lot of "hockey buddies."
People are so nice in this hockey family. We were given hockey pads, 2 pairs of skates, and this sweet lady said she has pants, gloves, and a helmet. How nice is that? I am impressed with rough and tough hockey parents and children and young adults. Ryker had an amazing two nights, and Hailey "loves to dance on ice."
We are doing great and hope that spring wants to come soon, oh, how we want be be outside. Mike is starting an insurance business so this week has brought new habits, and new routines, but we are soooo excited for him, and we are happy he is happy.
Sorry if you felt like I am rambling, I just need to figure things out and where I want to be and who I want to be.
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