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my grandma died last night, and joined her husband who was preparing heaven for her. she was so peaceful, and we all were there for her final moments. they are such an example to me of love, kindness, patience, caring, and just being there for everyone.
i am glad that they are together again. this was probably a hard week for them both. they would have been married for 59 years in july. that is so amazing, i think they are happy to be together again.
i do feel terrible for my mom, and all of our family, but i can't help but think she is where she is suppose to be. her mom died when she was 12, and so i bet that was a sweet reunion. my grandpas dad died two weeks before he was born, so i bet that was just awesome to see him, and hug him
i will miss them, but now they can be by all of us.
in words of my niece: "she's like our fairy god mother?" that is right!!!
i love them so much, and am grateful i got to have them for so long, and that my kids got to meet them and love them too.

time flies, when you are not blogging.

i am a slacker when it comes to this, let's just say it and face it.
this has been such a busy, emotional few weeks.
ryker got sick again with pneumonia. this time no hospital visit, just scary days and nights. he is doing so much better now. we sure love him, and hope to keep him healthy.
my grandpa died, we had his funeral last night.
my grandma, (his loving wife) fell and sheared her femur and broke and turned her hip, she has had surgery and is not doing so well.
my sister after the funeral got in an car accident. she is doing okay.
all this news has just made me feel that i am in a cloud, and just floating around.
in all of this, i have managed to get off extra sugar, like snacks and all the stuff that has in the past helped me through these tough times. i have really had to FEEL everything, and that is not fun. i have had to say no to my head that would love to eat that good stuff. i did have a piece of pie on sunday and a few bites of cake yesterday, and to be honest it made me sick. i have never FELT that before.
we have also taken away the disney channel from my kids. hailey was acting to much shake it uppy. it has been a lot better. i have had to entertain them though, during all this bad news, but it has been good to have them by my side.
i am grateful for the plan of salvation, and i know that i will see my loved ones again. i know that they are healthy now, and busy on the other side. i sure love them and will miss them. i am sad for my mom, her parents mean so much to her. they will always be with us though.
i am grateful for my little family, and the way they support me. on saturday i ran 20 miles and i could not believe that. i have had mixed emotions marathon training as well. i have had a hard time finishing the long runs, its all in my head though. i know i can do it, i just don't want to anymore. can you even believe that? two years ago i would do my training runs, and be on such a running high, and feel as if i could do more, and then i would, this year, not so much. i just wanna be a healthy mom, and a good wife.
i believe i have changed for the better, and now my life is changing. i still love to workout, and eat good, but it is not my life anymore.
different seasons, and i am trying to live in them.