Facing my fears!

This is how the day started.....
So I woke up in a frantic last night because I had went to the softball game without a mitt. I was so embarrassed I did not go back and went to Home Depot and bought A LOT of tile..don't ask, this was my dream. I thought I was going to have softball stomach ache all day long, and then it happened, a distraction. I cleaned my whole house, bathrooms and all, before 9:30am, what was I going to do with the day, so many hours before the game. I decided to go for a run, I finished too fast, it was kind of hot today so I didn't want to go any further. We came home, and we went and saw the grandparents, then Ryker needed to eat, so downstairs we went. Then we had lunch and early naps, what, EARLY naps, seriously the kids were not cooperating, with my hopes of making the day go fast. Then it happened I decided to call the doctor because I was having some chest pain, and it hurt to even sleep last night. Well I got an appointment and moved Rykers well baby check to today, we both got checked over and we both are in pain. Ryker weighs 16 pounds and is 27 inches long plus he got shots, poor guy, he is so brave. When the nurse came back into the room, Hailey told her "don't poke my brother". It was so cute, she then told him "be brave". As for me, I have an infection, thank goodness, I was so worried that a big cancer lump had formed over night. It hurt so bad, I kept having Ryker eat on that side to hopefully feel some relief, none came. I thought for some reason I was engorged, but on only one side, never has happened like this before. The best thing is she prescribed me an antibiotic that is okay to still nurse, so awesome. So, that took up a lot of time right? It was great, a good distraction, for a scary night with a bat. Mike came home at 5:20pm, my hopes were to leave at 5:30pm, well not happening. We ate, well kind of, I didn't feel like eating, I was so nervous. We showed up at the game, and it all left me, I love the smell of the field, the running in the dirt, and putting your hands up to block the sun so you don't get hit with a fly ball or a line drive. Let's back up a minute, the reason I am so frightened is because while I was playing pitcher, I got a line drive in the face. I almost broke my nose, it hurt, and scarred me for life...well until tonight. I was playing outfield, and I LOVED it. I was sitting on the bench waiting for my turn to bat, and they yell she needs a runner, I said I can run, so I got to run the bases. Man, I love running. I got to bat twice, and well I walked the first time, good eye right? On that one, I ran the bases and I scored! Hailey was behind the fence, good job mom. I loved that. Mostly, because when we were leaving the house she said to me, better bring the camera this is going to be good. The second time I hit and they caught. MAN, but I got someone to third. I forgot the rules kinda, being right field I need to back up first base right, well I didn't and 2 runs came in, I felt so stupid, I just said "my bad, sorry", they didn't seem to care, but really I forgot that. Hopefully it will all come back soon. In the end we lost 13 to 6, but we played good. GO TEAM!!! I was so proud of myself for facing my fear, and getting back in the game. I hope I will continue to play sports, and be active. I love the feeling of being out there, and having something all my own. Did I ever mention that this is co-ed? The guys in the league are super supportive of us girls playing. Thanks for all your support.
Then I faced another fear, our theme for girls camp is "bootcamp", so we were to pick a certain boot that we wanted to be, we picked wonder women boots, so we wore red shirts, red capes, stars on our heads, and tin foil on our wrists, and of course red boot covers. We danced at the ward talent show. It was so funny. I am so glad that no one recognized me, anyway, that is not like me. We are wonderful women, right?
Mike and I don't have the grandparents this weekend so, we are going to the zoo tomorrow after we get our family photos taken. I will have him help me put probably photo overload on our blog. So check out the pictures on monday. I will do this, promise.
Here is to facing your fears, and no more weird dreams!!!

Little angels, that I love!!!

Well hello friends. It has been a long time since I have blogged, and posted pictures. I have the best intentions...sorry I am so bad.
We made it to Chuck E Cheeses! That was Haileys' prize for going potty, along with a laptop. She always wants to check her e-mu (email), so we did a sticker chart and she had to go 10 days with no accidents, it took her 15 but she did it. She has done sooo good. I sure love her. She now tells me, "my belly says, Hailey, you better get on the potty, it's coming out!" I sometimes ask her "what is your belly telling you", and she says nuffin! I don't know what made her want "Chuppy Cheeses", but that is all I heard about. Fun, Games, and Pizza, it truly is a place where a kid can be a kid! When she would have a accident, she would say "so I guess no chuppy cheeses, man," it drove me nuts, that went on for like 5 months, no joke. You see those kids that would feel so bad that they had a accident, well not Hailey, she would say "let's get in the tub, no toys, this is not a fun tub mom." Today her friend had a accident at our house, and she told her "don't worry things happen." She is such a sweetie, she always tells me that I am her best friend, I hope that never changes. When we get upset with each other, she says "mom I am a little person, be nice." She really is teaching me how to be a mommy.
Ryker is getting soooo big. He is rolling all over the place, and is just so flippin' cute. He is now eating rice cereal, and sweet potatos. He will try carrots tomorrow, I just love feeding him. I still nurse him, I hopefully will do that until he is 13 months, like I did Hailey. He is starting to laugh so much, and just talk to us. He is so funny. He is a great baby, I couldn't ask for a better baby, I just wish this amazing baby didn't want to see me at night anymore. He still wants to eat in the middle of the night, it drives me nuts. He is 6 months, he doesn't need to eat at night, and with how big he is, he certainly does not need to. I would let him cry it out, but we live with Mikes' grandparents, and well we have tried to let him cry, and I end up making breakfast for them because I feel so bad. Waffles anyone, just live above us!! Needless to say, I am still feeding him once in the night.
So, you wanna laugh? I am on a softball team again. I have not played in like 10 years, I am so scared. The first game that I will play in is on Friday night, I hope it rains!! I am so frightened that I will strike out, or get hit with the ball, but I feel that I need to face it again. I used to pitch on a recreation team, I played for 12 years. I feel I am in much better shape now than I was then. I am running 2 miles a day and doing pilates everyday. I am almost at my target weight, just if my coordination comes back. Keep me in your prayers!! Go ahead and laugh, my parents and sisters did. They couldn't believe I was on a team again. I said, thanks for the support! I think Mike and Hailey will laugh as well, Mike has never seen me actually play sports on a team, well this will be exciting for everyone.
I will try to post pictures, but really don't hold your breath. We are getting pictures taken this weekend, so I will try to put those on the computer, with Mikes' help. I am getting this family of four thing down, I actually don't feel stressed out every minute of every day, just some!!! Then dinner time comes, and everyone is hungry and mean, and then I remember, oh ya we are done!!!
So until next time, see ya!